Last Thursday we headed to California for a long weekend getaway. Taking the kids to Disneyland, swimming in the pool, and a quick trip to Knott's Berry Farm. The trip was fun, but completely exhausting. I watched my kids have this amazing experience seeing their favorite characters, riding on rides, and eating too much junk food. Which quickly led to several meltdowns, both by my children and myself. Don't get me wrong, Disney is great. I can have appreciation for seeing the joy in my kids eyes. But in all honesty, it's also really hard. Hudson, who does better with structure, probably threw himself on the ground crying about 19 times during this trip. Yes, he had fun, he had a great time. He also had a really hard time. And it is so hard on us, as the parents to survive these moments. To come out the other side.
During our trip my cousin sent me this article, which I have since seen all over facebook as well. I literally read this article in the bathroom at Disneyland, half-way crying, at the happiest place on earth. It hit home. Why is it that if parents, specifically mothers, talk honestly about parenthood, sharing the really, really hard times, they are looked down upon. It has happened to me so many times. I'll be the first to say my children are my everything, they have changed my life for the better and I am so grateful for them. But they also wear me down. Having your child be the one kicking and screaming, hitting you in the face, all while you are in line to take THEM to see Donald Duck, is crazy hard. I love being a mom AND I miss my alone time. Our trip was great. It really was. But next vacation, sand, beach, sun, margaritas, and no children. Because it's ok to be selfish as a parent. You have to be to survive.
Now...these smoked tuna cakes. I made these right before we left for our trip. They are one of my favorite things to make, as you make a big batch and have leftovers for days. Here I used canned smoked tuna as I had some leftover from our trip to the Oregon Coast. But feel free to use regular canned tuna, that's what I normally do. And if by chance crab is on sale, use crab. The recipe was adapted from a restaurant in Portland that makes really good crab cakes. When I was in my 20s I use to happy hour there as often as possible just to get these cakes and a good gin and tonic.